COMMIT TO ACCOMPLISHING MY OWN GOALS TOMORROW

                                     " I'll worry about that tomorrow,"  said Scarlett O'Hara.  That's what my horoscope says I should do.  So I will since I've done nothing that I'd planned to do today.  Instead I gardened,cleaned out a closet,  tidied up the house and made plans to go to Colorado soon.  HMMMM.  I'm really on task-NOT! 

The Indian River - Titusville, Florida

                                       Yesterday I TCBed for hours and the day before too.  Enough is enough.  Give it a rest.  Fortunately it was clear and gorgeous yesterday so I was able to ride over the bridge to Canaveral National Seashore and the longest stretch of undeveloped beach in Florida.  That's why I moved to Titusville.  But I get the vapors when I drive if there's even the slightest humidity or heat in the air.  My car is tiney so gas fumes collect easily in the car and make me dizzy.  It bothers no one else except me.  It mainly happens if I'm HUNGRY,ANGRY,LONELY OR TIRED= H A L T.  Dehydration also factors into these attacks.  I passed all my blood tests but last year I was diagnosed with Hypoglycemia.  So that helps me avoid the vapors by eating every two hours.  That's also the solution for panic attacks.  It rarely gets above 80 in the winter here in Central Florida so I never fix my AC which breaks every year when the freon oozes out.

                                        The greenery glistened as I drove my Miata the six miles out to the ocean and the 24 mile long sand dune.  First I stopped at the Visitor Center to see if the resident alligator was sitting on the island in the pond.  He was not.  I walked on the boardwalk through the saw tooth palmettos(Florida's state tree).  The cool nights and fresh air made them bright and green.  When I reached the beach toll booth, i realized I had lost my senior National Parks pass.  The attendant let me anyway.  I still can't find it after searching the house.  Hopefully it is in my jeans' back pocket.   Before I started to feel faint while driving I used to drive out to this enormous beach every day.  The same woman park worker always checked my pass.  One day I forgot it and she wouldn't let me in.  Luckily she retired and they have some normal humans now.
                                  I looked in all my clothes.  I still can't find my pass.  Uh oh.

SETTLE DOWN

KEEP CLAM!  That's what my horoscope says.  Clam up because if I speak, I will be misinterpreted.  What else is new?   I often speak to people who don't get the jist of what I'm saying.  I guess I ramble and speak in parables often. 

BE CREATIVE AGAIN

YELLOW CAMARO NOT CORVETTE-  Yellow is a sign of hope

                             WHO KNEW?  I never turned on my computer.  Instead I went to garage sales and bought lottery tickets.  I even  drove by my yellow Corvette.  The only relaxing things I did was go to Fox Lake and later see the movie about Hawaii"The Descendants" at the SPOTLIGHT THEATER.

FIFTH HOUSE OF SELF-DISCOVERY

                                                 THE AQUARIUS NEW MOON HAS BROUGHT ME INTO MY FIFTH HOUSE OF SELF-DISCOVERY;  Only evil forces can keep me from my quest for self expression.  evil lurks in my own home in the person of my husband who begrudged saying good morning to me twice.  When I greeted him again at the kitchen table, he did not respond.  When I demanded recognition, he said:  I already said it upstairs.  Upstairs he was busy on his computer and didn't even realize I was there.
                                               This is not the kind of atmosphere a creative person thrives in.  Luckily he's leaving ina little while.  So
                                            EXPRESS YOURSELF
                                            DO WHAT YOU'RE GONNA DO.
                                             EXPRESS YOURSELF
                                               
                             IT IS THE DAWNING OF THE AGE OF AQUARIUS.
                                                 AGE OF AQUARIUS
                                                            AQUARIUS
                                                                   AQUARIUS

FIGHT ON MACDUFF

                           IT AIN'T EASY BEING EASY.  IRKSOME DELAYS.  C'EST LA VIE.  C'EST LA GUERRE.  SAY YOU NEVER CAN TELL.

OVERWHELMED

                     Fools rush in where wisemen never stray.
                      But wise men never fall in love
                        Or so that's what they say.
                          So open up your heart and let this fool rush in.


                           Decisions-  What to give up and what to keep and the courage to know the difference.  It's a waiting game.   I decide and then I change my mind.  I don't think I have the nerve.  It's too complicated.

                           Just walk away Renee.

                             Half listeners.

                               Next week is THE HOUR OF DECISION. 

                                    Age is a factor.  My neighbors escaped.  Next year will be better.  Aha!

BE CREATIVE

                             My mission if I choose to accept it is to be creative.  It's not easy I have a woman coming to paint my patio furniture.  $600 worth of house paint is to be delivered by Sherwin Williams to paint my pool house next week.  It all puts some serious moments int my life rather than creative.  The Full Moon is Monday so that's when I'm in my financial mode.  It's hard for me to be creative.   They start painting my house on Monday for $500.   We'll see.  It will be Artistic Taupe and Spa Blue in the pool patio.  It's monochrome except for the splash of blue in back by the pool.  I'm keeping the trim the same color.  I hope I can stick to my guns.  We'll see.

A PAINTING BY MY ART TEACHER JOHN HALLIDAY OF MARTHA'S VINEYARD

                               I'll go to the movies at 1:00.  That's creative.  I want to see The Descendants but it hasn't come to town yet.  I'll see War Horse, The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo or Mission Impossible.  So that's the word Hummingbird.  I just did the Yoga Sun Salute and am listening to the Mims French radio station.  There's very little static today.  I'll make some get well calls today and write my cousin if I can find her address.